Joy is a net of love by which you can catch souls.

Feel sad. They planned up a birthday celebration for me. ya, but they created for marcus because , it has been a long time we didnt see him , hahahahaha? class gathering instead, ah , dont wanna say so much either. (:


I went for exam, yeah i got crazy and mad, i scream and shouted like crazy, i really feel like giving up so much, i bet next monday on 04 oct will be the worst day ever, they will still start all this shit on me, dont worry, i wont be celebrating either.its nothing, there's still people teling me " next monday, math exam ah, remember meeting marcus at causeway for soeul garden and etc". it's like.. its very obvious that they are planning for him instead of me, it's like his birthday instead but aiya who cares. i really feel like crying man. someone come back and then start all her shit temper on me again. if i dont wanna carry on study , i won't be going to school, I WON'T. I did try, I DID. what the fuck you guy want? The hair colour... ya. i agree, im wronged but what the makeup part? I DIDNT I DIDNT MAKEUP they insist i did, they scream at me for using phone when it's time to go home, she force me to give her my phone but she tell the other way room to mr ng, saying she told me to keep it . nice. teacher is the biggest what.. right? I wanted to cry so badly infont of them, but i cover it with laugh, a smile, i really feel gulity , really feel so gulity after listening what miss wong say, i covered how i feel by just laugh and smiling. Do you think deep inside my heart i really dont give a damn? I seriously give a damn or else i wont be forcing myself to wake, REALLY.


I know no matter what i say i am wrong, really, fuck up life.




I mean nothing at all. I REALLY TRY TO CONTROL MY EMOTICONAL. I REALLY DID BUT ALL SHIT IS PULLING ME DOWN. I DONT KNOW WHAT SHOULD I DO RIGHT NOW.